It has been about three weeks since we found out that Jesus is giving us the amazing gift of twin boys. We are continually becoming more and more excited! The shock of it all has subsided and we are filled with anticipation and wonder.
For me, the idea of twins is like a new challenge that calls for preparation, training, and forethought. However, at first I was filled with worry. I wasn’t worried about life with twins outside the womb, but with twins inside the womb and how the remaining months of my pregnancy would play out. Will I carry them to full term? Will I need to have a c-section? Can I still have a natural, drug free birth? Will the twins need to stay in the NICU for a little (or long) while? These were some of the questions that were swirling through my mind.
One early morning as I sat spending time with Jesus, He calmed my soul and reassured me of His plan. He didn’t tell me that I would carry to full term, have a natural birth, and bring the babies home the next day. Rather, He asked me if I was willing to be used for HIS glory and purpose no matter the outcome. Would I be willing to spend 3 months at the hospital with babies in the NICU if He had a greater purpose in store? Would I trust Him to use me to bring glory to His name and let that be the focus, rather than worrying about all the details and what ifs? Would I?
After that sweet morning with Jesus, I had a renewed sense of purpose. I was ready to be used by the maker of the universe and bring glory to Him, no matter the cost. Whatever He wants to do with me, I am ready. Whatever He has purposed for these twin boys, I am willing to trust Him. The focus isn’t on having the perfect twin birth at the perfect time, but rather allowing Jesus to work through me to bring glory to His name. If He wants us in the NICU to share Him there and encourage those around us… then we are ready. Whatever He wants to do with us, we are His vessels ready to be used.
In other news, the preparation for twins boys is coming along nicely in the Brooks household. Titus is on his way to being potty trained with week 1 with no diapers under his belt. We cleaned out the garage to make room for all of the diapers and equipment that we will be storing for the next few months and made a binder with all of the freezer meals and shopping lists that we want to make before the boys arrive. And of course, we are cruising the internet for great deals on second hand twin baby gear that will be of great use. 🙂 We are on a super fun adventure and loving it!